once on bebo this girl from my school has the skin ‘im the type of girl who walks into a lampost and says sorry’ and she bumped into me at school and she told me to fuck off
trying to cut back smoking is seriously the worst thing ever if you are legitimately dependent on nicotine. in my life, it is the hardest habit i’ve ever attempted to break.
i woke up this morning a complete mess because i hadn’t had a cigarette in about 24 hours. i cried over the fact that i could not eat something for breakfast because it hurt my teeth (couple cavities that i cannot afford to rid of right now), yelled at my mother for really stupid things, then just… ugh, i can’t even go into detail about the rest because it is shameful. after a cigarette and a cup of coffee, i’m all good and ready to face the day.
recently people keep side eying me and lecturing me more than usual, telling me i need to quit. really? again? i am well aware of the health risks and basically everything everyone usually tells me. it’s past the point of appreciating that people care enough about me and my health to bring the topic up - it has become a nuisance that i do not want to deal with.
people [who have never been addicted to any kind of substance]: some people who try to quit smoking (or other things) do not have days to do nothing but be a crazy emotional person locked up in their room until the effects wear off, especially if they have to [pretend] be happy functional person of society. it takes a lot of extra willpower that is hard to come by and pull through. especially if they were smoking to alleviate anxiety and other symptoms that you may not be aware of. if people are dealing with a disorder or related things, and quit smoking, it fucking elevates the symptoms they were trying to suppress with any substance tenfold. in a lot of cases, it turns them into an unbearable person to be around, even when they are by themselves. some people (including myself) push back quitting over and over due to this fact alone. yes, it wears off over time, but it’s really fucking hard to go through, alright? please try to be patient and supportive and not condescending. if you can’t be supportive, just please try not to touch on this subject at all.
just try to understand it, okay? and please do not try to talk about things you do not fully understand.
yes, it is hard to see someone you love addicted to a substance that is doing harm to them, but if you have not been through it personally - it is more real and controlling than you can probably fathom - any addiction is. using it against them in a condescending way only adds more unnecessary pressure. saying shit like, “ew,” “that’s gross,” “you need to quit,” “you’re still doing it?,” and really the list just goes on and on …it just does not help the situation. it does not sound like a big deal, but trust me - if you hear it constantly, it’s obnoxious and starts to feel degrading.
chances are, you will lose someone you care about for being ignorant, whether or not you realize. i’m willing to bet that you will either lose them as a friend, or make them feel less as a person even if they do not show it. i don’t think anyone wants those things to happen, so please be mindful.
Four fucking days. Four days and I’ll be in Iceland by myself.
Watching this video only gives me goosebumps. I’m so excited.
so beautiful.
“Click here for more hipster on your dash!”
Click here for my foot up your ass.
“grunge/pastel”
